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Changing the font of this blog because Georgia just wasn't hanging with the vibe I want, ya feel?

Yesterday while at work I picked up "Missoula" by Jon Krakauer because the topic of rape, particularly amongst college communities, has become so prevalent. As a college-aged woman, I feel like it's important to really educate myself on the subject because (sadly) it so often has to be debated. Why that is is truly beyond me. But alas...

Also yesterday, I worked out a plan for paying off my credit card debt in (ideally) a little less than a year, so long as I actually stick to the plan. Unfortunately, it is going to mean spending significantly less and actually being disciplined but it surely won't hurt me to learn some discipline.

I've also been tossing around different ideas for career options because holy fuck I need a real job. Like a REAL job that has REAL benefits and that could actually allow me the freedom of living on my own. The last thing I want is to mooch off of my family for the next 3 years while I figure out how to be a normal human being. Also bouncing back and forth between whether I want to try going back to school in a year or not...

Whatever. I've currently had almost 30 ounces of coffee and oh boy am I feeling it. Unfortunately, not to the point where I'd want to work on any of the work that I have for these last few days of class, like oh, I don't know, the final I have Friday morning that could easily make or break my grade!!!

Anyways, just thought I'd stream of conscious write a lil something and I've done just that and now I need to get back to the realities of life. Toodles.

8/01/16

It's no doubt been a long time since I've even bothered looking at this blog, let alone wrote a post on it. No one follows me at the moment and that's ok. I'm currently at a time in my life where I feel like I need to record my thoughts and experiences because it's been a fucking gnarly ride as of late. 

I'm dropping out of college, which a year ago would have put me into cardiac arrest to think about. 

I'm not only dropping out of college, but I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do with my life after my summer classes end this Friday. 

I'm in a shit ton of debt that keeps me up at night thinking about. That being said, I'm ready to tackle it on even though it currently scares me more than the six cockroaches we've found in our house this past week. 

I've let far too many men use me in an attempt to validate my self-worth and it's sad really. 

I think I could most certainly say that I have without a doubt hit a sort of rock-bottom as one might call it. But the good thing about rock-bottom is that there is nowhere to go but up from here. 

And, quite frankly, that makes me pretty damn excited.